Ok, so normally I would keep myself anonymous, but in this case, it really doesn't matter anymore. I just need help...
I don't know what's wrong with me, but I'm nearly at the breaking point of tears. It's to the point where I just dislike people, period. I know that's not good to hate at all...but I don't know. I just can't help but feel filled with negativity.
I try to distance myself from this negativity, I really do...but it's just so difficult because somewhere along the line, something messes up and it just brings down my whole entire positive vibe and makes me into something so bitter.
I don't know....this just happened today. I guess I'm stressing...but...
I just want to be happy.
So my question to you is...how can I maintain that positive upbeat vibe ? Something that will be able to give off happiness to others even. Simply...just be happy, not as a coverup...but as a true, deep, feeling of pure joy ?
(I probably sound like I need therapy or anti-depressant pills...LOLOL..)
P.S. I'm not depressed...I just get irritated very easily and I guess I'm very influenced by the vibes around me, mainly negative ones.
I completely understand. i have had problems of a similar nature for a while now.
Why are you so prone to negativity?
well, no offense to anyone, but it’s easy. It takes more muscles to smile than it does to frown. It’s always simpler to pick out the bad things and just go with them. It’s easier to get angry at some one about something, rather than remain calm and sort things out. It’s a sad but simple truth.
Why is it that even when you try to be happy, negativity finds you?
There’s a balance to everything, a yin and a yang. You cannot be happy with out having an even amount of sad and angry moments. I read in a book once about aliens, silly as it may seem, the alien mentioned that on their planet they had no word for betrayal, and when they thought about it, they didn’t have a word for trust either. Negatives and positives need each other to exist, and to be appreciated.There is a balance.
Happiness is a matter of perspective. To be happy, you should take a moment and count the things you are lucky to have and remember all the people who don’t have those things. If you get irritated by something, try remembering that getting upset won’t really help the situation. Mostly that true joy comes with finding the silver lining of your storm cloud.
A personal mantra often helps me. Try remembering that there are worse things that could happen.
and hon, i don’t think you need pills. Every one has had break downs, some more or less severe than others, and if they haven’t they’re probably falling apart on the inside and just won’t show it.
“I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living, it’s a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope. Which is what I do, and that enables you to laugh at life’s realities.”—Dr. Seuss