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This is my "break-up" story, for lack of better terminology of the mess I was put through. This guy and I liked each other for four months. He never spoke about actually going steady, and even when it was brought up, he continuously blew it off. I never thought anything of it because I was blinded by all the good feelings he gave me. I would sneak out and sleep over his house every night, we'd snuggle, kiss, play, laugh and talk about life. Gradually, I started to really care about him and wanted to be his girlfriend for real. Finally, the confusion had totally taken over me. Questions constantly ran through my head; Is he ever going to ask me out? Does he feel the same for me? Am I just a fling? I had enough of the mind games! One Friday afternoon, I gave him a letter confessing my feelings and simply asking him to tell me what exactly was going on between us. I thought the letter would make it easier on him and help avoid any awkwardness. I felt really good about opening my heart up to him. He really meant a lot to me and he needed to know it. For the rest of the night I did not hear from him. Not until 12 a.m. that night did he text me. He said "I don't know what to say to you. You have made it more difficult and I don't think it's even worth it any more." From that day forward, he would not talk to me. Every question I asked about the situation was ignored. In fact, anything I tried to say to him was plainly ignored. You know what is so funny about this whole thing? Within a few days, he continued to sit with me at lunch and on the bus ride home. He talked to me as if NOTHING happened between us at all. It was incredibly uncomfortable for me and I was always on the verge of tears just looking at him. I was forced to look into his eyes thinking of how his kisses used to feel, how soft his touch used to be, and how he completely broke down my walls; but there I was trying so hard to build them back up again. I was afraid to bring up what happened in fear that I'd scare him off for good - because, despite how much it hurt, I still liked seeing him every day. Later, I realized that no matter how much I try I cannot and will not be able to get inside his head. I cannot force him to express his feelings. I had to make a choice - to either continue on with a friendship or cut ties with him altogether. About two weeks after the "break-up", he would not stop talking about this new girl he had been hanging out with. After putting all the pieces together, I realized he had long moved onto another girl. It had nothing to do with what I felt about him. He already developed stronger feelings for this girl. As if I couldn't be any more hurt! But it wasn't long before I stopped talking to my "dream boy" for good. Truth is - - - If a boy isn't down to fight for the relationship and easily gives up like this one did, that is a definite red flag. If he TRULY cared, he would not kick you to the curb so quickly. However, this should not be confused with boys who have a hard time expressing their feelings, because it happens to all of us. But if you willingly give your heart to him and he wrongfully stomps all over it, you know what to do, ladies! Simply pick up the scraps and turn to those who really care about you to help mend it back together. We must live, learn, and move on <3